Getting Ready...!

Well, this is it! After preparing for almost a year I am going to be moving onto the next phase of my life in less than a week! And in many ways I'm moving from being a child to being an adult.

I have to say that I am getting so giddy and excited thinking about it! But I also still have that twinge of nervousness that I still am overcoming. My life is about to change completely, from who I know, my routine, my food, weather, and probably even clothes! I have been thinking and planning the next part of my life since I was in junior high and this is much bigger than my plan was! God is so good! I know that I'm going to face so many challenges and I will probably be broken down by God many times and I'll shape into a new person. But this is also part of my worries... I get afraid that I may change completely and to me that is something difficult to even think about. But I have been shaping my own identity for so long I lost the picture that God is the one who is supposed to shape it. So now I think that maybe changing will be a good thing. But I don't think I'll change too much, and I don't think for worse either. And keep seeking reassurance from God that this is best and that things will happen like they are supposed to!

It's going to be tough soon. I have always had such tight friend and family bonds and having to give up even a little part of that for a short while is very hard for myself emotionally... I really don't like having to miss special events and things and having to be distanced for a while may be best but it still isn't easy in the least! I am giving up secular music, and any television, and most movies, certain books, and even my video games! But none of these, even all put together, are not nearly as tough as communication! But I also know I can't just to conclusions before I'm there. I may have more ability to talk to these people than I think, and that will be such a blessing! And tough I haven't even left yet I still can't wait till I come back for the holidays.

I hope I get good roommates, though I trust God that I will get what I need and what He wants.

I can already feel a change working in me even though I'm not there yet. I have had to trust God so much already and it makes me feel so much closer in my relationship! I can't wait until I get there and am filled completely with the love and joy of my Lord! I can't wait until that day when I shine so brightly with Gods light that people see it and want the same for themselves! I want to be amazing for God and I know that this up and coming internship is going to take me leaps further in that direction!

I am going to miss everybody but I know that this is going to be amazing and well worth the wait! My blog posts will be fewer probably, because I am going to be quite busy! But I can't wait for you to hear about all the ways God is refining me in (hopefully) the near future!

-Keeping the Faith,

C.A.M