My siblings have moved out and so there is no way for me to have a person like that right now. I Had shared a bed with my dogs in the past and they were about halfway the same as humans, but they still helped. But now I have to sleep all alone and though I like having my own room I like having somebody to share it at night. I wonder if this sounds creepy to anybody... Because it's the truth! A lot of people have been fine by themselves in the dark since they were little but it's something I'm still working on.
Now I don't want to only rely on people, when I'm in a room by myself I pray to fall asleep and have to clear my mind. But when alone I have a probably non-healthy dose of music to help me, as well as a night light... And something most would find creepy about me is that I pile pillows next to me and hold onto them like a person (but I don't usually snuggle people who are real when I sleep) The thought that there is a person in my bed protecting me is probably the reason why I do this.
Right now I'm in California visiting my friends. And since most of my friends have limited space I sleep in the same room as them and I have been, and always have, sleeping very well this way.
I also like to talk to people before I fall asleep, like how I would with my sister when we shared a room. I would listen to her read me to sleep and just talk about things until my eyes closed and I miss being able to do that. But when with my friends now I have been able to do this a little bit more then before.
And now I wonder if the reason this is so much built into me could be for marriage... I know I'm pretty young to think about it but it is usually on my mind... And I had always thought when I was little that the person I married would have to not mind the nightlight and music but I have recently realized that I won't be needing these things once I'm with a person. Sleeping with person, as in falling asleep with each other, is something I could say I look forward to in marriage. Maybe God is showing me this? The fact that I want a husband for reasons like this and I wonder if the person I'm going to marry in the future has these kinds of thoughts and "problems", or if he's the solution to them and has never been afraid of the dark. And something to add as a type of side note is that I wonder about my soulmate out there constantly...
So I have to say that right now I am sleeping well with the comfort of other people, I am getting better at sleeping by myself and that I think if my soulmate thinks these same things...
-Keeping the Faith,
C.A.M
There's no problem with relying on people. While the bible thoroughly says that we shouldn't be a burden upon others, Galatians 6:2 tells us to "Carry each other’s burdens (NIV)." In other words, we should help others whenever possible, and, while we shouldn't ask for help unless necessary, we should willingly accept their help when they offer it. =)
ReplyDeleteAnd I see no problem with thinking about marriage at this time, and I would encourage it. While this is not the time to be trying to find someone to marry, this is the part of your life where you are figuring out what kind of person you are. You need to figure out what you should do to be ready for marriage, so that you'll be ready when that time to date comes. You need to define yourself before you can define yourself with someone else.
Interesting topic - and something I think people make a lot of assumptions about b4 marriage that then get changed. I definitely agree that having your spouse come to bed with you or be there when you come to bed is a wonderful way to get to sleep more quickly and easily. (foot or back massages, gentle conversation and other things really help with that).
ReplyDeleteHowever, people have very different expectations about bedtime. Here's just a few:
1)Bed is a place for sex and sleep, not for conversation.
2) Bed is the place where I lke to stay up reading or watching TV.
3) After supper and evening activities, I can't go to bed right away - I need to wind down on the Net or with a book or...
4) When I lay down on a bed I usually fall asleep within 10-15 minutes - can't stay awake. 5)While I'm up, I am busy. I really need a little conversation in bed before I can sleep (or do other things) with my partner.